Nakakadepress ang ma-reject

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Okay, itong post na 'to ay hindi dahil malapit na ang Valentines. Depressed ako hindi dahil magba-valentines at wala akong jowa. Depressed ako sa kadahilanang nareject na naman ako for the third time sa job application.

Oo, job application. Job application kasi naghahanap ako ng bagong malilipatan. Kailangan makahanap ng bagong work para sa ekonomiya. Lovelife ko makulay pero ang career growth ko di na tumangkad. Iniisip ko kung matutupad ko pa ba yung 1 million in a 30 ko kung ako heto at stuck sa matagal ko ng trabaho. Ang hirap kapag patanda ka ng patanda, dumadami na obligations saka ang priorities nag-iiba.

Naisip ko bakit ganun? Sa una okay naman pero pagdating sa final interview sumasablay. Ano bang pagkukulang ko? Ano bang mali ko? Tingin ko naman nasagot ko lahat, at my best possible answers. 
Sana lahat ng company na inapplyan ko at nireject ako eh binibigyan ako ng reason kung bakit nila ako di tinanggap. Parang pag-ibig lang eh, diba pag nakikipagbreak ka, kailangan mo ng closure?
Kailangan mo malaman kung saan ka nagkamali, kung alin kailangan mo iimprove para next time di mo na uulitin. Pero oo nga pala, hindi lahat ng breakups ay may closure. So bakit ko ieexpect na bibigyan nila ako ng reason for my failure?

Binigay ko naman ang best effort ko during the hiring process pero bakit di ako matanggap-tanggap?
Attitude ko ba ang problem? Hindi ba ako presentable enough? Hindi ba ako lovable? Minsan iniisip ko, tama pa bang maghanap ako kung meron naman na ako? Kailangan ko pa bang tumingin sa iba kung sa sariling company ko naman eh meron naman ibang opportunities? 

Sana...sana pagbigyan na ako ni Lord, sana bigyan nya ako ng sign, sign kung bakit hanggang ngayon
nandito pa rin ako. Sana makahanap na ako ng bagong work, sana...sana may flowers akong matanggap sa boyfriend ko this Valentines.

The Maya Kitchen Experience

Last Saturday (January 31), my sister and I went to The Maya Kitchen to take their chocolate making class. Prior to the saturday class, she already registered a week before. Even though I have already an idea of what we'll be doing, I decided to join her. While waiting for the class to start, a lady asked us if we are planning to do some business that's why we are there.Well, we are not really planning it yet but it's nice to do something else for that weekend and hey, Valentines is coming so need to think something as a giveaway.

Anyway, we were only few in the class, less than 10. Most of us are either moms or working ladies. Our instructor was Ms. Roxanne, she's been with the industry for decades already and I'm happy to know that even though this is only a chocolate making class, they still put an experienced instructor to teach us.
Our instructor, Ms Roxanne Arcilla

Love is a choice

love birds

I was wondering if you'll be able forget that someone you used to be with. That someone who made a great impact in your life. He/she might stayed for a couple of months to years until the inevitable happened. No, I'm not talking about that childhood or teenage love affair. That one is pure, innocent and it doesn't really know the meaning of love. I'm talking about that special someone who made you realized that life is fun, exciting and dangerous. 

That someone you don't care about going with to nowhere.
That someone who gave you a chance to see what true love means.
That someone  who you'are afraid to lose
and if that someone crosses your mind right now, then he/she is that one.

They said that love is a choice, I guess they're right. But it doesn't mean that when we choose to love a person, we choose to hurt them too. If we love, then we hurt. And if loving you will hurt me in the end, then I'll choose to be hurt than not to be love at all...    

What's your new year resolution?

2016 is almost near and most of us are preparing for their new year's eve celebration. But of course, aside from the celebration, resolutions are one of our popular to-do list this coming year. For me, my 2016 will focus more on my financial and health status. I realized that I am waaaay beyond my goal of 1 million before 30. Yup, I have that weird goal. I figured that I mismanaged my money these past few years that my net worth is little compared to what is expected my age. Anyway, what I am happy about is that I started 2015 by investing some of my money in UITF, then ending the year by investing in Mutual Funds and Stocks. I plan to continue it and do it regularly. As a first step for my 1 million by 30 goal, I bought  and read the following books to gain financial literacy:

  • Cashflow Quadrant by Robert Kiyosaki
  • Easy Money Para sa Kababaihan by Francisco J. Colayco
  • Wealth within your reach by F.J.Colayco
  • Making your money work by F.J.Colayco
  • Think Rich Pinoy by Larry Gamboa
I already finished them all and somehow, I felt positive toward my financial future. I suggest to add this on your resolution-to gain financial literacy.  There are many mistakes and decisions that I made especially on money matters. But I realized that it's not too late to leave the rat race. It will be late if I'll never start doing it. 

As for the health, two months ago, I was operated because I have an ovarian cyst. An experienced that I don't want to happen anymore, so I'm taking an extra care for myself. This year, I started by subscribing to a diet service for two weeks, It didn't last long, so this up coming year, I plan to make my own healthy meals. Of course, I plan to couple it with an exercise that is okay with my doctor. Sadly, I am not allowed to do some weight lifting...for how long, I don't know.  I really need to remove the excess weight or else I might undergo another operation. Geez, ang hirap maging girl! Oppss, correction - mahirap maging girl na may hormonal imbalance. lol. 

So that's it, only two new year resolutions. Not too many but not too ambitious right? And if you noticed, these are not really resolutions but rather long term plans that I'll start with baby steps. How about you? What's your new year resolution? 

Nayong Pilipino in Clark Pampanga

I couldn't remember when was the last time I visited Nayong Pilipino. I think I was in elementary and that time it was near in NAIA. Now, Nayong Pilipino is located in Clark Pampanga. Mas malayo na siya compared dati. I celebrated Christmas with Leonard's family here.  Not my usual way of celebrating Christmas but it's fun anyway. 

Since it's holiday, the roadtrip to Pampanga is quite breezy. I realized that very few tourists go in this side unlike if you go to Enchanted or Star City where you'll just waste your time in lining up for the rides. The admission fee in Nayong Pilipino costs Php 150.00. I don't know if this is the usual rate or was increased because it's holiday. I just found it too expensive.